green light

Right before I left my office yesterday I got the call from the fertility center I was waiting for. In my head I was thinking my e2 levels would be right around 100, maybe a little higher or lower depending. Yeah, no. They came back at 530! Which means we were given the go-ahead to definitely continue, but they scaled back our dosage of the Follistim a bit. I will go to the Beachwood clinic tomorrow morning for another ultrasound and more bloodwork to make sure everything is on track. We are praying for follicle growth and that my estrogen levels are where they need to be and I don’t think I’ve ever prayed so fervently for something in my life.

I also had another acupuncture appointment this morning before heading into the office. She used 14 needles {way more than the 4 she used at my first appointment} in my belly, arms, and legs. About halfway through the first set I could feel pulsing in the ovary regions and then heaviness. I can almost feel the growth which is really so cool.

I am still feeling good today – but I did switch over to leggings. This is partly because it’s Saturday and I need to clean my house once I’m off work, but also because I couldn’t be bothered to put on jeans today.

Today I am thankful for this process. These are literally words I never thought would come out of my mouth, but I am learning so much and have a new respect for the human body. It is a total miracle that any of this works and it’s honestly a miracle that Irwin and I are handling this as well as we are. IVF is scary when you look at it. I kind of gave us this 5 year timeline to mentally and financially prepare for it, but God planned otherwise. I haven’t once felt since starting that God didn’t want us to go through this, and there is something comforting in that because, honestly, there is no way I would have the peace I have without God and Irwin says the same.