and some panic

Yesterday we made it through day three of stimming and even a mid-injection cartridge change. The follistim only has 300 units per cartridge and it’s overfilled slightly, meaning sometimes we will have to switch it out mid-injection. This is kind of an annoyance, but Irwin and I are becoming pros at this so it wasn’t too bad. I’m at that point where it’s like what’s one more needle and a few hundred more dollars *proceeds to make it rain money which University Hospitals promptly picks up and deposits into their account*.

All jokes aside, I did have a moment of weakness this morning and had a mini panic attack after leaving the monitoring appointment. According to the ultrasound by lining is thickening (good sign) but all the follicles I have are still under 10mm a piece (normal sign). I think in my head I was expecting this amazing growth, so even after both nurses, Dr. Google, and friends telling me all this is normal for being on day 3 of stims and day 6 of my cycle, I still had a bit of panic set in thinking what if they cancel because I’m not responding well. I was so worried about overstimulation that I didn’t even give thought to under stimulating. New curve ball I guess. I will say that on the baseline day, I couldn’t see any follicles on the ultrasound, and today I saw a lot, so I feel like there is growth, they are just growing slowly. Turtle and the hare – slow and steady wins the race.

Outside of my bout of panic and some tears this morning, I still feel really good. No major bloating (still wearing jeans!) and no true pain. I do feel some expanding down by my ovaries, but nothing abnormal or cause for concern. Trying to eat mostly healthy, but the caramel – pretzel – chocolate chip cookies I made the other day are still part of my daily caloric intake. All about balance after all, amiright?

Today I am thankful for my friends that have been there since the moment we started this journey 2 years ago. I have literally never met any of them in person, but a lot of the time, and especially with anything regarding reproduction, I feel closer to them than any of my irl friends. I guess that’s what happens when you regularly discuss Wanda, bodily fluids, and pee sticks. Love you ladies to pieces!