a little rant, and moving on

Guys, I had a weekend, and not in a good way.

I won’t go into details – but between being emotionally drained, people complaining, and a very negative conversation someone tried to have with me about having children, I was totally over it as of yesterday afternoon.

So then we finally made it to the end of the weekend, our small group had left the house, we cleaned up a bit, and headed upstairs to administer the progesterone in oil shot. I have literally been dreading this since the day the nurse told me I’d be on it back in December. Irwin pulled the needle out and I almost fainted/threw up. He grabbed the instructions out of my hands and told me to lay down and relax. I had originally thought these went in your bum, but it actually goes up higher, in your hip area. The problem with this is I have wide set hip bones and I couldn’t differentiate muscle and bone. Fortunately, Irwin was able to tell the difference. He washed off the lidocaine, swabbed the area, and it was go time. Because of where these are administered, I was laying on my belly with a heating pad under my belly to keep me warm and not tense so I didn’t see anything happening. Irwin paused for a bit before actually doing the injecting and my whole upper body was tense to draw attention away from that area – I really just wanted to get it over with at this point. That’s when I felt the prick and then – to my complete surprise – nothing.

The ganirelix shot I was on towards the end of my fresh cycle hurt way more than this did, and that was a puny 1/2″ needle. It has been two months of me dreading these injections and it was over before I knew it. After the shot is administered we were told to apply a heating pad and then Irwin massaged the area for a bit to distribute the medication. I have to say, that was kind of the upswing to my weekend, and I felt a little more confident going into this week. And these shots, if that’s what it’s going to be like, I can totally handle them. I am consistently amazing myself at how strong God made me and cannot really believe I’ve been so scared of these things. It really isn’t the worst thing ever and I know what the end result is, which makes all of this totally worth it.

So for those of you that are going through this and need to be on the Progesterone in Oil shots – they aren’t all that terrible. I would recommend asking for the lidocaine prescription and don’t do the injections yourself. But they really could be way worse – and when the end result is the baby you have been praying for, all of this will just be a small blip in your memory. We can do this.