it’s ivf time

Dear Baby C,

This is the week! Af showed up yesterday and I have my baseline appointment scheduled for tomorrow morning bright and early! I cannot believe we are already here.

When I started bleeding I think I had mixed feelings of fear and excitement. If you would’ve asked me that morning, I would’ve sworn we wouldn’t have started for another week. I think all of this took me by surprise and as of this moment, it still doesn’t totally feel real. I am experiencing a surreal calmness {which once you meet me, you’ll know this is totally not my M.O.} which I can only look at God for the explanation.

Yesterday during church our pastor spoke on faith and how people are put through trials to sharpen them. I think back to when we first started trying and how I was reading book after book, article after article on how to “get pregnant quickly”. I did everything in my power to try and have a baby when I wanted to have one. Well, God had other plans for our lives. I had brushed off getting pregnant knowing we weren’t going to start ivf for a few years and it hurt, but I knew we had a lot going on and financially I couldn’t figure out how we were going to make it work. But God is mighty and this process is part of His great plan for all our lives. I am having faith that God is going to guide our doctors to take the best care of us, that He is going to give your dad patience and strength to handle me and my raging hormones, and that He is going to give me peace and positivity during the next month.

I am praying with all my might that this is what is going to work for us. I know there is still a chance it won’t, but I also know that I serve a God that is so, so good and with Him all things are possible. I rest easy at night knowing I serve such a mighty God and that you will be dedicated to Him.

We love you baby C,

Mom & Dad